“So Long Old Friend” ❤️

This will be my last post of 2024. I have changed a great deal and everyday I’m evolving more and more. It could be because God literally knocked some sense into me with this whole concussion incident. It’s time to say goodbye to some aspects of myself that kept me safe and comfortable. It’s served me well, but now it’s time to elevate vibrationally. I decided to write a goodbye love letter to myself as a form of gratitude and respect to the old version of me.

Dear Old Self,

I am writing this letter with a heart full of gratitude and love. I honor and cherish you in this very moment and beyond. Today, I’m honoring you by throwing a ‘Goodbye Bash’. You were there for me in ways no one else could be. In moments of sadness, you soothed me. In times of loneliness, you were my companion. When I needed to be shielded from harm, you became my protector, standing tall even when the weight of the world tried to pull us down. There have been things only we know and share that no one will ever be privy to and I know my secrets will always be safe with you. Thanks for being my confidant.

You carried me through so many dark days, whispering that I was enough when I doubted my worth and my ability to carry on. You kept me moving forward when the world seemed to stand still. We relocated from state to state, just us and our dreams of finding a forever home. I see now that every defense you built, every barrier you raised, and every maladaptive behavior was done out of love for me…for us, even when it was hard to understand at the time, but it kept us safe. I’m eternally grateful for this.

But the season for us has shifted, my friend. The person I am becoming no longer needs the armor you so carefully crafted. I am stepping into a new chapter—one where I trust myself to face the world with openness and confidence, without fear of breaking or retuning back to my old nefarious ways to get my point across. The love and protection you gave me will forever remain a part of who I am, but the version of me that needed you has grown.

This isn’t a goodbye filled with sorrow. Not at all. It’s a loving farewell, one where I release you with nothing but gratitude and love. You were everything I needed in the moments you were there. Thank you for your resilience, your care, and your tireless devotion.

I promise to carry your lessons, our lessons, with me as I embrace the freedom, love, and light of this new version of myself. It’s time for me to live fully, to stand tall without the shields, and to trust that I am safe, worthy, and whole.

Thank you for every single thing. I’ll always hold you in my heart, but it’s time for me to move upward and forward.

With eternal love and gratitude,

Mekah